Thursday, September 22, 2011



I  look into the falling rain and find myself slipping
Dripping with the cold past, memories of old pain
Drops fall, the puddles falling at my damp water life
Spiraling a mirror of self-lonely strife

A sigh, one frown, crying soft saddened tears
Storms of rememberence through the bleak yesteryears
Clouds casting a whorl
The dark sky sheltering a fair heart
But how can I have joy, while taking no part?

I try to cover myself
Defying the stabs of my fate's intents
This is madness, I  think
What is my destiny
A plaything with which gods and angels scheme

Am I doomed then to live, time never letting me free?
Subsumed wholly underneath life's scattered debris
Is there justice, outside this torrential doubt?
Perhaps more than sorrow

Is love, perhaps, just a sliver of sun?
Shining through mists
But not for me
A personal paradise, which I can never own
Evoking happiness
I long to feel

While standing at a crossroad in life
The urge is to take the most comfortable path
The road with least resistance ...
The shortest or most traveled route

And yet, I have been down that comfortable road before
Have gleaned its lessons in life, and learned from my experiences
It is in these times of confusion
That I must seek peace and solitude

How often I must bear the challenges of life
The endless roller coaster between happiness and sorrow
The constant ups and downs of daily strife
And always the question remains .... WHY ME?

Labels: Life,happiness,sorrow,me
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  1. I know this seems to be a series of blows that you are going through...somewhere, someday they will make sense, but right now they must hurt like hell and leave you bruised and questioning. I love the way you express yourself - your writing is itself an expression of acceptance...while you ask 'why me?' I pray that the answers will come..soon. Till then remember you are loved.

  2. of the gifts you have revived, life will spring again, love is a eternal flame. that will burn in you. thank you for a heart felt poem god bless

  3. Oh, I saw this as a blessing...precisely because...'re given the chance to be vulnerable... and you finally don't have to feel strong ALL the time...'ve the opportunity to discern which road would be best for you...

    ... you could feel the love of all the people surrounding you...

    And I say keep going soul sis... keep on please...

    You are never alone in this struggle...

    I love you a lot soul sis...

  4. My love and prayers are with you. Life can seem a daunting journey at times. Your line:" What is my destinyA plaything with which gods and angels scheme" made me want to give you a big hug and assure you of the fact that God has blessed you with so many amazing gifts, it is up to you now to take them and create your own destiny! You have it within you...all you have to do is seize it and make of it what you will.

    ~love and light

  5. Alps,dearest,my heart goes out to you!
    It is all very nice to say that 'adversity is a blessing in disguise',but one knows who suffers.
    WS has said,
    'A wretched soul, bruised with adversity,
    We bid be quiet when we hear it cry,
    But were we burden'd with like weight of pain,
    as much or more we would ourselves complain.'

  6. i dive into the probabilities to check in "WHY ME?"
    i seek for the reasoning that the seasons strike me
    i pass on the misfortunes as nightmares kissing by
    i am the bloated blue that can never fail me
    even if the ink says always
    "WHY ME?"

  7. i dive into the probabilities to check in "WHY ME?"
    i seek for the reasoning that the seasons strike me
    i pass on the misfortunes as nightmares kissing by
    i am the bloated blue that can never fail me
    even if the ink says always
    "WHY ME?"

  8. Such a moving poem - I think all of us have asked "Why me?" at some point in our lives and all have faced challenges. May God guide and bless you through yours!

  9. I am sorry to hear about your pain Alpana. Like you said it is easy to take the easy road but sometimes we have to take the road less travelled. It will be rough and foreign but who knows where it will lead.

    A BIG hug, Alpana!

  10. All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on.
    Henry Ellis .....
    Time will lessen the pain...till then our prayers are with you. Hugs.

  11. The universal question but you ask it with such passion it sounds like the first time!!!

  12. A sensitive soul will always be brave enough to ask the hard questions. You are not alone my dear in your query. We all have wondered this a time or two. As others have said, you are cherished and loved and the sliver will soon turn into a mountain of peace and love. Blessings and hugs....

  13. Alpana, I am keeping you so close in my prayers. I pray that your heart will be lightened and that your life be blessed. xxooxoxo

  14. Alpana, you have expressed yourself so well with your moving words. Your poem is a genuine anguished cry..why me? Be strong and whatever you are going through shall pass.God bless

  15. A very moving poem, Alpana. Good thoughts to you.

  16. Hugs and loves to you,I understand the "why Me"? I love the way you express it, knowing that you are going to be okay, but wanting to know why you.

  17. M sure god must also b proved ftr lisetning to this...WHY ME...Alpana a famous person had once said...while I was all successful in life I neva asked god Y me so nw at d time wen I hv lost everythin in life, I will not Q him Y me...It will pass.....

    Great creation!!!!
    My best wishes fr u!!!

  18. Alpana, it is a process. Every challenge is a call to action for growth and change. Is it easy, never. We visit that "Journey of the Dark Night of the Soul" many times in our lifetime. We shed old lives and begin again, over and over. The need for space is the "Soul's" need to mourn and grieve old ways. We grieve our past, we wonder how we can ever move into our can only be done through the "Now"...what do you create based on your knowledge and understanding of things learned, patterns changed and fears faced. It is a journey we make alone, but the helping hands are always guiding. I wish you strength...and know you are not alone. Always...

  19. 'Dripping with the cold past, memories of old pain'. THe past can hold us back, it can grab us and refuse to let go. There is only one person that can free you, and that is you Alpana. I adore you, your talents, your passion, your support. You are a magnificent human being, with unbelievable untapped potential. I believe, it is only my opinion, you deserve to fulfill your potentil, and you can once you know the future is where you want to belong. But it is good to see you writing again.

  20. Alpana,

    My love life is full of it's ups and downs and downs and up. The downs suck but we build upon them and become stronger from them so we can cherish the up time..

    You are in my thoughts always.


  21. Why me?..Such a simple question ..yet it yearns to be answered..through your words I feel your pain..and I wish I had the answers you are needing..all I can do is let you know I am here..asking the question with you..and always...loving you...As always...XOXOXOXOX

  22. Alpana... it is not easy what you are going through... If I may suggest... the question? Instead of asking "Why me" turn it around and say "Why not me"

    The skills, emotions,experiences and more you are taking from this is much more than most people can take or be gifted...

    There is a reason....there is a journey you have to make...

    sending you lots of love

  23. Alpana, sending positivity and joy, as always and I echo Corinne's thoughts when she says, the answers shall soon come but until then be assured to count on all of us.

    A tight hug and big kiss across ether.

    Joy always,

  24. Alpana ji,
    very touchy n full of emotions....

    And, this is what life is all n can't be uniform, only thing we have to take as it comes and take a lesson from our mistakes at times....

    keep moving with positivity.....stay blessed....

    Best wishes,

  25. Heart broken... Fragile... Aching melody... This pierced my heart into two... or three... Brilliant poetry.

  26. Because you are special darling...never forget, no matter what you're special...hautingly beautiful words!!

  27. Sometimes I also asked "Why Me?" but as time goes by, I realized that there are reasons behind it. Wait patiently to find out the answers. :)

  28. Remember that spring will come, and roses will bloom again.


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