MOTIFS ON THE WALL: marriage

Friday, November 12, 2010

So much for my Happy Endings

Without you…I’m nothing! With you…I’m something...and together we’re everything!!

“I Love you”…the three most overused, misused and misunderstood words in the English language.

Have you ever loved someone so much that the earth moved? Even though it hurt, did you love like there is nothing else your heart wants??

I know how it feels to cry in the shower, so that no one hears me…I know how it feels to wait until everybody is sleeping and then I can fall apart…I know how it feels when everything hurts so bad that you just want to end it all…

After he walked out of my life, someone asked me, who left who…and I answered love left us!! What did he think when he left me….Go ahead…break her heart, let her down, make her cry. Did you love me right? You used to say everything is fine…hold my hand, lead me on and then crush my dreams. It’s no big deal…because I am only a girl.

I waited for hours…you did not return. That first night, I sat by myself and cried tears of frustration. I waited for a week, you had nothing to say. Thinking of you, your voice…I cried tears of loneliness. I waited for a month but you left no sign for me. In the depths of my heart, I cried tears of despair. I still cry for the times I thought you were mine…for the memories you have left behind…I cry for the pain...the loss...the old…the new. I NOW cry for the times I thought I had you…

If there is anything I have learnt in this whole getting over you process...it’s that you are always going to mean something to me, no matter what happens. You are going to be deep down inside my heart. Even years down the road, if we happen to cross and our eyes meet…my heart will skip a beat because I just can’t get you out of my mind and the way you had made me feel….Then, when I was giving you my all….But was it really worth it?

What did I want from you…only to be loved sincerely, I always told you NEVER promise to stay FOREVER, but be WILLING to spend your life with me as long as there is TOMORROW!!Did I ask for too much?

And now I think I have done with crying alone. They say…past is past…I have to move on to see the future…..But how can I move on……..WHEN THE PAST IS THE ONLY THING I HAD WANTED FOR MY FUTURE!