The Pain Never Goes Away…..Missing you my dear sister ....24th February 2012
A year back,on this day, I found you in eternal sleep
I tried to wake you up
But all my pleas you could not hear
Only if I could have only kept you near
Away from the voices of those who went before
Who beckoned you to come to that distant shore
I find it so very hard to believe
That you have gone and I must grieve
I call out your name time and again
I fall down on my knees and begin to cry
For I never wanted you to leave my side
I wanted you to be with me for ever and ever
For you were my Sister and my best friend
Every trouble I went through, you were the one who opened the door
I lie on the ground crying more then ever before
And I look for you in every familiar spot
Everything seems so strange and surreal
I ask everyday is it a dream or real?
Where are the soft brown eyes of affection?
Where is the laughter and talk of childhood reflection?
Where is the loving care when I am sick or sad?
Where is the generous soul for which I was glad?
Where is the forgiving and understanding heart?
Where are the bonds that were there from the start?
I miss all the little ways you showed you cared
For there were so many good moments we shared
Looking back on my life’s assorted scenes
I realized you taught me what love truly means
You were my trusted confidante and best friend
On whose loving support I could always depend
Memories flood my mind as I touch the mementos
From the happy times you and I have had
But now these bring tears and make me sad
Can it be true what they say of time healing grief?
Is it enough when they say death has given you relief?
Can we believe what others say of a better place?
Where our beloved ones rest in God’s warm embrace?
I should be happy you’re free of pain and sorrow
How can I then be so heartbroken and selfishly cry
Return to me from that peaceful place where you lie!
Now I look down at your picture in a frame
That says little of the loving light you have shone
It tells nothing of the wonderful person you were
And only serves to remind me of the painful loss I endure
I promise not to forget the loving memories you gave
But still I miss you so very much my sister dear
And your caring words I once again long to hear
My heart’s only solace is one day I will see you as before
Beckoning me to come join you on that white distant shore…………
Picture: MY sister Anila,and myself