Thursday, March 24, 2011

If loving you is wrong, why does it feel so right?


 Life is no fun and games when you are in love, especially when there are two people you are thinking of. This forbidden love seemed doomed before it started, what was once just half friendship, ended up becoming whole hearted love. Now I try to make sense of this unique situation, through all that we been, I just can’t accept that parting can be our destination.

Through all my troubled times you gave me strength, a reason to hope, taught me to love myself….making me a changed person…a woman.
Time and again, I want to move out, knowing that we probably don’t have a future. Being the other woman,makes me feel insecure. At times I want to be selfish, and want more of what we have, but hold back, still believing that we may have something to look forward to….and to tell you the truth, every time I hear your voice, I just can’t think of living without you.

Sometimes this loneliness kills me, I don’t want to keep waiting all my life…


That's real to me, you give me an option and do not press the issue, what is a woman to do when she doesn't want to leave but does not want to dismiss you? If loving you is wrong, I don't want to be right…And if I have to sleep without you, I don't want to sleep another lonely night…This feeling of pain from being wrong and doing wrong is not doing me any good. I feel miserable, incomplete and mad at myself and no one else to blame. ..Making me think that maybe I should do the honorable thing, leave you and just be by myself. But I love you so much, I have given you my all....and I don't want to be alone.

 And if loving you is wrong, I don't want to be right for the rest of my life….and if loving you is wrong, I want to be wrong for the rest of my life…and if loving you is going to bring me pain and loneliness, then let me suffer for the happiness it brings…I will wait for our future, even if means forever, even if that future may never come, now or ever…. So if loving you is wrong, I don't want to be right. I don't need to be perfect in everyone's sight. I don't need to follow the rules of righteousness, I'd rather be wrong with my love and happiness. 

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Labels: Love, loneliness, wrong, life, happiness
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This post was first published at WE HAVE A STORY



as usual very touching you make us all want to hug you and keep you safe...


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March 18, 2011 12:56 AM
I agree with Jim...it's realy very touching and we all are here to hug you and keep you safe always.There is nothing wrong in loving and wanting.Life's second name is Love..so you are always right.Believe me :D
March 18, 2011 1:06 AM
@ABHISEK:...Thank you Abhi,I am happy that I have so many people to take care of me.
@Jim...Thanks a lot..I am touched.
March 18, 2011 1:43 AM
Anandita
I am so proud of you...a great post..and you are not wrong.
March 18, 2011 1:47 AM
Anandita
I am so proud of you...a great post..and you are not wrong.
March 18, 2011 1:47 AM
What can I say Alpana... you know exactly how I feel about this. When everything seems and feels so right... how can it go wrong? I never understood it. But you ended with a beautiful verse. 

So ready to lose everything to win this one thing called 'love'... 

Thank you my friend!!
March 18, 2011 5:22 AM
If you are destined to be with him you will darling - till such time just enjoy what you have with him - even the journey, if there is one. So what if it is one of anticipation. : ) Sorry too much said without thinking ... lotsa love
March 18, 2011 7:09 AM
I love your post and the questions you asked. Love is never wrong and loving someone with all you have is the most right thing in the world. If it's meant to be, it will happen.Trust the Universe to bring you all you need.
March 18, 2011 9:01 AM
Eva Manya
So beautifully expressed.....touched my heart.
March 18, 2011 9:17 AM
Rahul
amazingly beautiful...I feel like holding on to you...never letting you go...
March 18, 2011 9:44 AM
very nice alpana , "love i a beautiful feeling".
March 18, 2011 9:55 AM
very nice alpana, "love is a beautiful feeling".
March 18, 2011 9:57 AM
bobby
There is nothing right or wrong in love...and with someone with your heart..everything is right.
March 18, 2011 10:12 AM
No rules in love Alpu....you're a brave girl, we all know that!! Loved reading this...
March 18, 2011 11:34 AM
@Anandita...Thanks a lot..
@Sheba...I wanted you to read this,because you are one person,who knows whats going on with me...right or wrong...I still don't know,as you also don't know...are we ever going to get what we want??
@Kriti...You know where I am coming from...I hope your wishes for me come true..thanks a lot.
March 18, 2011 1:36 PM
@Sulekha...Thank you,and I too have left it up to destiny..
@Eva....Thank you,sweet Eva.
@Rahul...Thanks a lot..and you are my friend...and when needed,I will reach out to you.
March 18, 2011 1:40 PM
@Sarda...Thank u..and yes,LOVE is beautiful.
@Bobby...I convince myself by saying that there is no right or wrong...but,do get scared.
@Swati...I know you understand me..and thank you.
March 18, 2011 1:43 PM
@Sarda...Thank u..and yes,LOVE is beautiful.
@Bobby...I convince myself by saying that there is no right or wrong...but,do get scared.
@Swati...I know you understand me..and thank you.
March 18, 2011 1:44 PM
Hansika
Good one..Mausi.
March 18, 2011 1:45 PM
Be strong darling. Love can never be wrong. And we dont choose who we love, it just happens. Have the faith. As Paulo Coelho says that if we want something truly then the entire universe conspires to make it happen.It will happen.
March 18, 2011 1:47 PM
everytime we fall in love our existence gets a reson to live. its a wonderful feeling. loved to see the love in you. it can never be wrong. love is wonderful. love is powerful. each of your writing proves it each time you pen down your thoughts. keep similing:)
March 18, 2011 2:20 PM
touching story
March 18, 2011 3:27 PM
@Rimly...Thank you,I know you understand me,you know how I feel,and what I am going through,wrote this without thinking..was hurting a lot...Rimly...what more???
March 18, 2011 3:29 PM
@Sancheeta..Yes,love is a wonderful feeling...and thank you so much for appreciating my work.
March 18, 2011 3:31 PM
alpana, there are no rules for the heart... everything seems right... and yet i ask why do we experience pain and hurt when we love? 

"i just can't think of living without you..." 

i thought so too but eventually i did... my strength doesn't come from the people outside me... my life source is within me...

our heart will really be restless until it rests on the one who truly loves and cares about us...

i love you alpana and i always wish you the best :)
March 18, 2011 5:16 PM
No Alpana! Whether you think it's love or not you are doing yourself harm. I was that man in my past. He will never feel the same as you, no matter what words emanate from his mouth. He will be happy to have his cake and eat it too.

I am not saying to love is wrong yet sometimes we love the wrong ones.

Enjoy and savour but move on..

Cheers A
March 18, 2011 5:33 PM
@Melissa...thanks a lot...I love you..and I wish we could have been nearer to each other,there is so much to be said...but I am glad that you understand me...
@AG...Today I have realized what friendship is all about...time and again I question myself...wish for the will to move on...and will have to do so,eventually...Thank you so much...I will always keep you in mind.
March 18, 2011 7:05 PM
Nice reading A's advice btw... But maybe from the man's point of view, he's right or maybe we should really care about what he said... hehe

Great post Alpana for those helplessly in love and having difficulty to move on... I do hope you'll find a way to carry on with your life without that man though... It's hard but you got to fight it! ;)
March 18, 2011 7:42 PM
@Jorie..Thanks a lot..I am trying to..and I hopefully someday realize that I don't need a man in my life to be happy.
March 18, 2011 11:56 PM
I am awestruck... its not only the voice,when ever I see the person.. I get back to the days,to all my ignorant loving days.. days where I was a mortal tool to achieve something better... I wish to hate, But it doesnt happen.. "If loving you is wrong, I don't want to be right…And if I have to sleep without you, I don't want to sleep another lonely night…"....and i wanna write on this same topic!
March 21, 2011 7:47 AM
Thank u,Anirban..I am happy that you can relate to this...
March 22, 2011 11:52

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