Sunday, June 19, 2011

I KNOW YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW YOURSELF


I KNOW YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW YOURSELF

A lot of people say, there's someone for me, that the man who comes into my life, should give me, security. But I know they are wrong. They don't see what I see, and what do you mean by security, a ring, and wedding vows? Is that the only factor that binds two individuals who love each another?
When I look into your eyes, I see my life in you. They know nothing of the loneliness before you came into my life. Nothing of the empty tears I cried day after day, how did you do it, I ask myself, how did you banish the fear, the darkness? You have made me see that nothing is that bad, that I am strong and worthy of happiness, you have saved me from myself.

Every day I wake up and smile to myself, knowing that I have someone who loves me, knowing you can't wait to see me. How would I go on if you were not there to hold me, to bless me with your love and light? I am so happy that you found me, my life is now complete….I am home. I think you and I were meant to be. Someone once told me that dreams do come true, and I've experienced that.I have stopped thinking as to what is right or wrong,because its high time that I actually thought of myself.
I now believe that, whatever happens happens for a reason. If there is a God, and He has brought me to it, He will take me through it also.

Someone sent a part of this message to me…I have added to it.
I have made peace with myself, with my fears, with those who I thought I hated. I have forgiven mistakes that were indeed almost unforgivable. I've tried to replace people who were irreplaceable and tried to forget those who were unforgettable. I've acted on impulse; have been disappointed by people when I thought that this could never be possible. But I have also disappointed those who I love. I have laughed at inappropriate occasions. I've made friends that are now friends for life. I've loved and I've been loved. I have been loved without me loving the person back. I've lived for love alone and made vows of eternal love. I've had my heart broken many, many times! I've cried while listening to music and looking at old pictures. I've called someone just to hear their voice on the other side. I have fallen in love with a smile. At times, I thought I would die because I missed someone so much.

Today, I have reached that point in life, where the physical aspect of a relationship is not all that I have been wanting. For me, it’s much more than that…someone who reads my mind and soul, understands my silence, and loves me for who I am…And I know, this time, is MY time, because, he tells me…. I KNOW YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW YOURSELF.

I have to give a special mention to Rimly Bezbaruah, my friend...who understands me inside out,and I hope Rimly, you understand this also...I am tired of fighting against myself now.

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Labels: Love, dreams, life
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38 comments:

  1. Loved it,Alpana..its honest,and true.

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  2. I'm a firm believer that for every person out there, there is one that matches and connects with you and fits just like a glove. It's those people that you don't look for, you can't find them for looking - you just come together and when it happens it's like you were never apart.

    x

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  3. Honest words from the heart of a strong lady . . . Loved it...

    It's all about understanding each other others feelings.... It's a kind of a relation where even silence speaks a lot..

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  4. "'Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You too?
    Thought I was the only one....'" ~ C. S. Lewis

    Friendship is the most significant and lasting of all the loves. If one finds friendship in a lover it will last. If the relationship is based only on erotic love, it is as fleeting as a sunset. All lasting loves are rooted and grounded in friendship.
    Debra’s philosophy 101

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  5. Like SJ said, I also believe that there is a person out there for each one of us. Personally I think we are given too many choices in the world and make mistakes. We base our decisions on emotions and not reality. We live in a fantasy world where the Prince meets his Princess and they live happily ever after...that is not reality! Maybe there are perfect relationships out there but I honestly doubt that. Marriages and relationships are hard work.

    I love reading your posts Alpana because it is always so sincere and spoken from the heart. Have a blessed week!

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  6. its always good for us to come out of the hang over of what ever wrong or bad happened with us from any one whom we thought are dear to us....and in the run if we found some one who is really a well wisher and is available at times we need.....then we must keep them treasured....

    best wishes,
    irfan...

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  7. It really hurts when your friend doesn't care for U !!Finding relationship is tough!! If you find one ,then your life ll be different..Thx God I found out my life partner.But there are lots of problem ,not between us its with the environment we live .so we cant live the way we like ...I liked the 3 para,I have experienced it in real alpana.Thx U for this post !!

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  8. I find that people come and go in our lives as the "Helping Hands"..from them we learn. Sometimes the lessons are hard and sometimes we get it right away..but every relationship has its value..whether forcing us to change or teaching us to love. Then one day, what feels like Mr.Right comes along..when really...we finally had evolved enough for that special person who says...I know you better than you know yourself...because he is the male version of you..just a thought...lovely post!

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  9. You are so right soul sis,"they don't see, what we see..."

    I've taken a step back these past few days... and not wrestled anymore... the struggle could suck so much energy...

    I thank God for this occasion for you... claim it... It is YOUR TIME...

    i love you soul sis...

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  10. I wish u all the happiness in this world..and I know u can handle it..loved this one.

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  11. You are the best.

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  12. Very sensitive,and well written...I don't want to ask you any questions..

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  13. this sweet article almost reflects my present thoughts for someone!
    -PORTIA

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  14. This sweet article almost reflects my present thoughts for someone special!

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  15. I KNOW YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW YOURSELF.... loved ur post alpana...A real relationship is one where two people actually care and share :)

    “The quality of your life is the quality of your relationships.”
    -Anthony Robbins

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  16. i close my eyes but you open them up for you, for me. i see the world with your eyes, i find my pain erosive and happiness cemented in you. my life is beautiful. my life is in pursuit of truth. i walk with you holding your hands, your hands that hold me stronger. you are my powerful determination to live life. you deserve me more, more than i deserve you. you know me more, more than i know myself.

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  17. I see... Do it for you and for love.
    People may come and go but you are always with you so be happy with you.

    Cheers A

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  18. Very nice. Reminds me of many similar thoughts of my own..that of entering Act 2 of life..Liked it !

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  19. I will say its about the soul mate who may be the best person but someone who truly makes one feel great.

    Somehow, God works in many ways, sometimes we need to look really in for the message he is sending us.

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  20. that was powerful. And i second you on whatever you have mentioned on this writing. we al learn from many people, relationships, and events that occur in our life. Yet there's a mystery in everything that we see or feel. Great write-up there!

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  21. Ohhh...wow!! that was a emotional ride...

    wonderful write-up....

    you truly deserve this happiness....

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  22. God Alpana this was straight from the heart like all your posts are. "A loved one is not a person who understands your happiness but is the person who can guess your sadness before your eyes feel" To have found someone like that who knows you more than yourself, who senses your tears even before they fall....very few are fortunate to find someone like that. And you have my soul sis, so cherish every moment with him. I also agree with Ravenmyth that every person that comes into our life whether they stay on or leave are there to teach us something or to learn something from us, making us more richer. So when you come across a soul mate like that he is the male version of you because you are two halves of one, like two peas in a pod. Love you sweetheart.

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  23. You are a brave person always putting yourself out there without the cloth of distance. Always opening up your heart for us all to see.
    I agree a 1000% percent with Nelieta all marriages are difficult , it is happiness and pleasure derived from hard work, some tears and a whole lot of honesty with the person we love and most importantly ourselves

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  24. WoW!! Simply fantastic!! As all the 'enlightened' souls above have already paid glowing and (in some cases) flowing tributes to this 'straight from the heart' addition, I will only say this: GOD bless you and may you find ALL the happiness that you so deserve!! Take care. :)

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  25. Hello Alpana -

    You really write very very well. Do you know that?

    I have never spent a moment on this Earth where I doubted God's existence or doubted the power of love. I believe and will always believe that man and woman are meant to be together, not apart. I listen to all the people say stupid, ridiculous words like, "I don't need a man to complete me" or "I'm an independent man and I want a woman for companionship."

    Man does complete woman, and woman does complete man. That's the way we are made since the first man and woman walked this Earth thousands of years ago.

    Like plug and socket, like magnet to metal, and sun is to the moon... we all have our mate, some where, out there, for true love. :)

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  26. Alpana,

    I don't know if it is the wisest idea to wear your heart on your sleeve the way you do. Please my love, my friend protect yourself..... One might know you better than yourself but if one is unwilling to commit to you 100% one is not worthy of the love you have to give...
    I love you Alpana You are my soul sister...
    xoxox
    Jess

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  27. Alpana - I love the words and the honesty intensity behind this post. However, I'm a little afraid for you - only because I see myself in you. Like Jessica said, if someone is unwilling to commit a 100% to a relationship with you, then s/he is just not worth it. I learnt that the hard way and don't want you to be hurt again.

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  28. I'm so happy that you sound at peace and happy!!! If you've found love you're blessed...lovely post Alpu. Hugs....

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  29. I believe love comes when we are not looking..when we look with all the choices we have we make mistakes.. it;s the one we find while our back is turned and we were not looking... friendships true friendships are probably the most fulfilling of loves... As always ...XOXOXOX

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  30. You are so unbelievably real and genuine in your writing and have a beautiful capacity of love. Beautiful post. May you be filled with love and peace all of your days.

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  31. As always a fantastic article written from the heart. My belief is that we must first truly love ourselves, only then can we find the love outside that we deserve. Never settling for half measures. When we know we are the best we can be, will will only accept the best that things can be

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  32. this is true and a powerful one!

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  33. The reason I love your writing Alpana is because of the rawness that is laid bare by your own hand. I am not privy to the insight that some here may be concerning you, but I am honored to be connected to you as I know I will always received food for my soul from reading your work.

    Love and light from me to you.

    Tamstarz

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  34. Love is so sentimental. Your writing is very beautiful. I enjoyed much.
    God is always caring, for any hardship there is easiness to come surely.
    Be happy.

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  35. Speechless.
    There came a point in my life that I was also asking if there's really someone out there for me or what. I know I'm still young compared to others but I already experienced such heartbreak. But now, I'm doing good. I may not be ready for a new relationship but I know in time, someone will be there for me. =)

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