IT HURTS……..
I dedicate this to the three soul sisters in my life....Rimly Bezbaruah,Melissa Tandoc and Sancheeta Biswas,I love you,be strong....
My heavy heart that aches with despair
Lost, despondent, and is left to die
My soul that concedes to the pain
Where is the joy that this life was to bring?
I wait for a day when I can escape the anguish
Hope is gone and darkness is here to swallow me
Joy is now only a facade
A mask to hide behind my ache
Of unrelenting torment
I lie awake night after night
Wondering in the dark
Nightmares turning to reality
Seasons are now unchanging
The hand that had hope
Holds only misery and sorrow
Wielding its sword to fell
But now I am weary
Fatally wounded
I am hurting
A year ago
I had begun to wake up
With words,music,songs
To escape from my pain
To hear the echo of my voice
But why is there still darkness
And why can't I still cross the bridge
Of pain,loss and memories….
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Labels: Pain,loss,memories,night
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"A year ago
ReplyDeleteI had begun to wake up
With words,music,songs
To escape from my pain
To hear the echo of my voice
But why is there still darkness
And why can't I still cross the bridge
Of pain,loss and memories…."
Awesome.....!!!1 ♥♥ it. . ♥
i kiss my pain with the winter leaves falling dry. suddenly the fog disguise, sky clear, eyes wide open, reality bites. nerves stripped open to feel the tremendos pain. am i responsible. may be yes i am. only pain and pain. no one else to play the blame game. lets kick off and start again. can i cross the bridge now? either now or never. i need to hold on. lets not pretend anymore and say i am fine. lets speak it loud ..... IT HURTS.
ReplyDeleteSadly beautiful, I love your words so much, you say what I feel and can never describe. <3<3<3
ReplyDeleteGorgeous.. so I am not a soul sis?
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This is so beautifully haunting and sad. It is as if the soul is almost trying to escape from that dark corner to see the light. Thank you my soul sis for dedicating this to us.But we all have to reach out for that light and hope happiness is just around the corner. Love you Alpana
ReplyDelete@Avii: Thank you,I know you understand,as you are a very sensitive person.
ReplyDelete@Sancheeta: I know what you mean,just take care of yourself..love u always.
ReplyDelete@Jan: Thank you,your words mean a lot to me.
ReplyDelete@Blognostics: Thank you...why not,you can be my "soul sister" also.
ReplyDelete@Rimly: Thank you..I have been feeling very low since yesterday,a lot of things on my mind,you know my fears and apprehensions...I want to move on...
ReplyDeleteI wish someday you will dedicate one to me.... loved the poem none the less :D
ReplyDelete@Anirban..thank you..and where dedicating a post to you is concerned...do something worthwhile.
ReplyDeleteThis s soo beautiful n painful!!
ReplyDeleteSancheeta- Loved ur lines!!
Seems like everyone shining with pain!!
God Bless!
Mani
We all wear a mask to hide our pain. Because we don't want others to look at us with pale faces. But at times when we cannot handle the pain, we bleed out in words, I guess mostly through art. I feel what I read. My sincere love and respect!
ReplyDelete@NJ:Thank u...I know what you mean.
ReplyDeleteJoy is now only a facade
ReplyDeleteA mask to hide behind my ache
Of unrelenting torment
I lie awake night after night
Wondering in the dark
Nightmares turning to reality
Seasons are now unchanging
The hand that had hope
Holds only misery and sorrow
Wielding its sword to fell...
I want to frame these lines and keep. Another wonderful poem to read and cherish.
"But now I am weary
ReplyDeleteFatally wounded
I am hurting
A year ago
I had begun to wake up
With words,music,songs
To escape from my pain
To hear the echo of my voice
But why is there still darkness
And why can't I still cross the bridge
Of pain,loss and memories…."
sad but i can feel the pain....it really hurts..today even i am feeling same and post a post about it on my blog....
(http://nimhem.blogspot.com/2011/11/blog-post.html)
but a small light can diminish the darkness...even a small happiness(smiling and cheering attitude is enough)can break this sadness..a small touch of care from love ones can heel the pain...I hope you will have small light, happiness and care soon...
GOD Bless you...
@Manisha:Thank you..u are right,we are all shining in pain.
ReplyDelete@Sulekha:Thanks a lot..Your words mean a lot to me.
ReplyDelete@Hema: Thanks a lot,I can understand,it really hurts.
ReplyDeleteIf there is a 'black rose', here it is!
ReplyDeleteYou made me bleed internally.
-POSH
Hauntingly beautiful . . . touching descriptions of pain and loss.
ReplyDeleteWell done, Alpana!
Blessings!
Wow this is so sad..I am so sorry for your pain..I wish I could take it all away...I am here loving you...As always...XOXOXOXO
ReplyDeleteSo beautifully written Alpana :)
ReplyDelete@Portia: Thank you..
ReplyDelete@Martha: Thank you..I always appreciate your words of encouragement.
ReplyDelete@Bonnie: I know you will understand this very well,a person has to undergo pain in order to feel what the other one is going through,,,love u always.
ReplyDelete@Mary: Thanks a lot.
ReplyDeleteHello.
ReplyDeleteI'm an emotional man & poet. I find this poem to be sad & moving. I wish I could wrap you & all the others up in cloak of never-ending love.
Beautifully expressed, Alpana.
Thanks for sharing.
Imaginary Dreams
It is a sad poem Alpana, but I like the awakening part where you hear the music and see the light...there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. We just need to stay on that path and feel our way through the darkness.
ReplyDeleteGreat poem!
@Andy: Thank you..it means a lot.
ReplyDelete@Nelieta: I wrote what I was feeling,and what my friends are undergoing right now..I wish to see that light someday.
ReplyDeleteThe sadness is deafening in this one - I hope you are ok Alpana! Its beauty is in its sadness but I hope you can get over this phase Alpana - I hope it won't be too difficult.
ReplyDeleteVery sad, but beautifully and expertly written. Remember...there is always hope for brighter tomorrows...darkest is the time before dawn...then the sun will rise and lift your spirits with its light.
ReplyDelete~blessings
This came to me as a song soul sis... when pain is too much, I cry my heart out through music...
ReplyDeleteYou see right through me...I pour myself at work... or the children.
The more I hurt, the more God calls me to give myself...
I expose all my woundedness and darkness... my need to be loved, held, embraced...
Loving you soul sisters... you're not alone...never!
Light will illuminate the path of the brokenhearted. I'm sure of it. Blessings to all of you! Alpana, you have a poetic and pure soul. Hugs!
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Sad and beautiful at the same time.
ReplyDeleteStrong words sweet meanings :)
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